When you pray for God to move you, be specific. I could end this post there, but because it’s Christmas time and I am in a giving mood I will continue on.
I had been praying for God’s will to be shown loud and clear in our lives while we were living a drama filled realty TV show. I asked him to move me, but I MEANT move me in a direction in my life that is pleasing to you, not MOVE ME TO A DIFFERENT STATE! The funny thing I have come to realize, slowly but surely, is that when you ask God to come into your life, you lose all control. This happens to be a problem for a control freak like myself. God and I still fight about this on a daily basis, but MAN OH MAN is he a tenacious God☺
So it happened to be super bowl weekend and TK and I decided that we would invite lots of friends over for a party and assumed only a few would show up, but to our surprise everyone showed up and crammed into our tiny living room while we all ate, drank, and laughed. It was exactly what I needed to fight the sadness I was feeling and I think God knew that. We announced to some friends at the party that we had an interview the following weekend in Arizona for a job. Everyone gave us their best oh that is so cool, good luck faces, but their voices were absent of excitement. Hey I couldn’t blame them I was the least bit excited for this adventure as well. The party started to wind down and one by one our friends left and as each one walked out my front door I felt my heart break into a million pieces. Yes I am a bit of a drama queen, but when I feel an emotion I feel it with my whole body. I honest to God felt like my life was over. My family was gone and now I would be too, leaving behind my friends! What did I have left? NOTHING, at least I thought nothing.
The week preparing for our trip to Arizona was an absolute whirlwind with packing, rearranging my work schedule, finding a Snoop Dog sitter, and crying, and lots of crying. I was a hot mess and TK was trying his hardest to keep me positive, it just wasn’t really working. I don’t remember the car ride or plane ride to Arizona, but I remember when we landed in the desert. It was sunny and there were palm trees next to a cactus! We got off the plane and found our shuttle. I sat next to TK putting on my best this is nice smile. I am not sure if he bought it, but he was oozing nervousness and excitement so I figured I needed to check my emotions to be a good wife. The shuttle ride felt like and eternity that drove us the car rental place where we were appropriately placed with a bright yellow car. We drove through what we would call in the D, the ghetto and I seriously thought to myself why leave one Ghetto to live in another? My attitude was fantastic at this point people. Once we barely escaped the ghetto of Phoenix we arrived in Sun City (yes this is the city’s name) to out hotel where we were greeted by a nice gift basket from the church and phone calls from members welcoming us and expressing their excitement to meet us. WHO were these people? Nobody expressed that much excitement in Michigan unless the Lions won!
TK was whisked off to Thursday night rehearsal for the weekend services where he would be displaying his mad skills. I however sat in the hotel room by myself. I paced, unpacked, cried, repacked determined that’s it I am leaving him because this is not going to be my life, I unpacked telling myself that was the stupidest idea ever, cried some more, took a shower, and than packed again. TK called at the perfect moment, told me he loved me and was on his way back to pick me up to meet with the current worship leader and his wife. Damn, I was trapped. We met at a Starbucks, THANK GOD THE desert had Starbucks (OK we weren’t in the middle of nowhere, but in my mind we might as well have been, feel me?) The couple was nice enough and talked the church up so much that I should have seen a red flag right then and there, but I didn’t.
The rest of the weekend was a blur with lunches, dinners, looking at houses, getting lost, church services, and meeting endless amounts of people. After the last service on Sunday we were handed a check and a job offer. They told us to go home and think about it but the job was ours and waiting for us. Once we decided to move to Arizona, we were to cash the check and get there ASAP, within a MONTH!. EXCUSE ME WHAT? They wanted me to pack up my life and say my goodbyes within ONE MONTH!!! Are you freakin’ crazy? Yep they were crazy because that is exactly what we did.
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